Stop Giving a S#%@. In Moderation.

Well, Summer 2011 is coming to a close and I guess I can say that this was the summer of cliche realizations. I've certainly learned a lot. Last time I posted, I was hosting at Jim 'n Nick's Barbeque. Ha. UPDATE. I quit about two weeks ago, something beyond my normal character. I was surprised at myself because that's probably the first commitment I've  really ever quit. But I let the work atmosphere affect me. Maybe I should pay more attention to my blog name; That's life. Initially, I started working there with the hope that everyone likes me, I'm on everyone's good side..etc. It didn't take me long to figure out that it's impossible to please everyone in the workplace who aren't all on the same accord. I was quickly reminded of the different classes and types of workers. You have the:

1. Youngins - Teenagers/ Young "Adults" who are there for some spending money, but don't want to work for it. I guess they assume that money appears like Magggggic.

2. Hard Workers - I mean, that's pretty self explanatory. Their eyes were open when they applied for the job and read the list of the duties expected of them...and actually do it without complaining.

And then you have the..

3. Seniority Peeps - These were the people who had x amount of years working there and thought they were just the shit. Um, get off your high horse because you still have to work (just as hard) as the rest of us.

Towards the end of my time there, it got to the point where I had a negative mentality about the day before I even got there. I just thought to myself "Clock in. Clock out. I'm not here to make friends." Of course that didn't help my situation. I eventually let the drama push me over the edge enough to quit and I do regret that decision.

More importantly, I guess this was an experience that reminded me how the military is going to be, as far as being in charge anyways. You're definitely not there to please everyone. You're there to accomplish a mission. Not everyone is going to like you, but most will respect you for doing things in a sound manner. I'd say that's something that I definitely struggle with..caring too much what people think of me. This is good to do...but in moderation. My biggest challenge will certainly be making decisions that I think are the best for myself and whoever that affects around me...and being confident in those decesions.


ON A BRIGHT NOTE. I  ordered a CARSTACHE! Can't wait for this baby to come in. Haha. Butttt yeah. Stop giving a s$%#....in moderation. :D

No Shit, Sherlock.

     So I totally had a no shit, Sherlock moment last night. But it's more like a moment that reminds you of something you're already aware of, but don't necessarily take the time out your day to realize. I can truly say that my bestfriend deserves the world. She literally puts everyone else, inlcuding her 10 brothers/sisters, parents, boyfriend...everyone before herself. Yet, she still has problems that constantly hang over her head that are way beyond her control. Thinking about it makes me realize how selfish I can really be. I mean, I'm pretty giving. But I feel like I'm pretty selfish with time..money..etc..when there are others out there who struggle just to have those things in the first place.
     She never ceases to amaze me how kind she can be, even when times are the hardest. If you've ever heard the phrase "kill em with kindness", her picture would be right next to its definition. Sometimes I just wish there was a huge contest or lottery that she could win, evnethough money isn't the answer to problems. But it does help. "I don't mind helping out, but sometimes I wonder when I'll be pampered for a change..but it doesn't seem like that is going to happen anytime soon." Hearing that kind of broke my heart.

     I learned a valuable lesson that night; Stop bitching over your insignificant "problems" because there is someone out there, maybe someone even close to you, that's going through so much more than you realize. Cherish freetime, the ability to spend money on yourself or the privilege to just go anywhere without worry. It's really funny how society associates the wealthy with intelligence and good values while assigning less fortunate people with less favorable connotations. But it's truly the poor, and sometimes middle class if you will, that recognize what counts in life and live for it, rather than material possession or pride.

"Times are changing"...are they?

     I'm sure everyone is tired of the race card being played, I being one of them. You all have occasionally seen a person's reaction to a racist comment made against their ethnicity at some point in your lives I'm sure. I'm also quite positive that a good portion of the people being offended were black...oh stereotypes. Now, I'm usually not the first to complain about this sort of thing because I try not to jump to conclusions or wine about something that seems like it'll never change. But what does bother me is when people associate a whole group of people with a negative connotation and add "no offense but.." at the beginning of it when sharing. What...am I included in your ignorant comment? It's happened about three times at work now that I've noticed. Different instances. Most recently...

     As a hostess, I greet a black family and seat them to a booth. They all seemed pleasant and cheery..in comparison to the rude,hungry customers we typically get. They looked very promising to tip well if you had a good attitude accompanied with a smile. A look of disdain spread across the server assigned to that table's face as she groaned and asked another server if he wanted it. The look of disdain came in unison.

    And you know, the funny thing is, I didn't really think too much about it until a white coworker brought it to my attention. "It bothers me how people treat others here, especially the racist comments. That infuriates me. Do you remember the things Mallory said?"  I realized how passive and unaware I sounded as I began to say "I'm used to it" in response. "Well that's a horrible thing to be used to. And you shouldn't be used to it." What a beautiful person.
     It really saddens me how a significant portion of society still views African Americans as a whole to this day. Yeah, times are changing but it amazes me the things that I still see and hear. I hate that almost instantly, I could be associated with crime. I despise the fact that someone might assume that I'm extremely lazy. Before I have a chance to speak, I'm a tad irritated that someone out there is expecting something highly uneducated to come out of my well educated mouth. I admit that there are people out there who need to get their lives straightend out, but that's any race.

     I'm very fascinated with the Holocaust. Ironically I picked up a few books from the library the other day related to it. Right now I'm reading "The Nazi Offcer's Wife: How One Jewish Woman Survived the Holocaust" and it's pretty good thus far. I've read thousands of articles, books, etc. on the Holocaust and the similarities in society never cease to amaze me. Nothing could compare to a genocide in today's world, of course not. It's just fascinating how history really repeats itself....well in this case I really hope not. I can see it now....the black Anne Frank. Nahhhh let's not do that. Haha, just some thoughts in my head.

Numero Uno.

      Well, it's been quite a while since I've had a blog. Plain and simple, I haven't blogged since Myspace was the Facebook/Twitter of all social networks. But I figure if I want to be any kind of journalist...here might be a good place to start. Here it is, summer of 2011....not too eventful. Haven't really seen too much of my friends from back home. I guess they're busy..  I'm hosting at Jim N' Nicks for the summer for some extra ca$h and I'm on the prowl for more scholarships. I have plenty of goals in tow but my most expensive, besides college of course, is getting a Jeep of some kind. After looking into the pricing, gas mileage, etc., I hate to say that it's an unrealistic goal, but I have hope. One of these days you'll see me cruising the streets in my beautiful Wrangler...or at the gas station struggling. I've also been going to the gym quite a bunch so I can wipe the floor with those dudes in ROTC. Speaking of, I still debate from time to time if it's really what I want to do. I guess I'll find out sooner or later. But above all, I'm blessed. No need to complain.

      As a rising sophomore, I can safely say that time flies fast, like a bird on crack. Freshman year was an abundance of realizations and experiences that helped me come to quite a few conclusions. For one thing, the college dating world is more casual and less cordial. Hit it n' quit it for more simple and modern terms. Don't pay your tuition and expect your soulmate to be included within the sticker price of your secondary education. It's probably something that I dwell upon wayyyy too much. But I know my other priorities.            
      College is also supposedly the designated time when you  "discover the real you"...andddd I'm still trying to figure that one out. I know my personal standards and values..but it's truly harder to stick by them than I thought. I'm so surprised at myelf...I mean...I used to be this bubbly/outgoing person who didn't give a poop what people thought. Rather than coming out my shell, my inner crab is pulling me back in for some reason. If there's anything I'll change about this upcoming year, it's getting out more.And not caring what people think..within reason. But thankfully I've made some good friends to help keep me on track.

 WOW...looks like I may have to cut this one short. Just got called into work for another shift. SEE, I do work too much. But I look forward to posting more later on. Toodles.